love

I just watched the movie Cashback and it really opened up a doorway to an emotion that I have been searching for for a long time. Along with other movies that really appeal to my deepest emotions, the one’s that make the hair on the back of my neck stand up (Orange County, and Art School Confidential). The way the director directed the film was absolutely perfect and he communicated it in a way that spoke louder than words.

It seems apparent that I am definitely an artist at heart. I don’t know if the writers or directors of these movies all feel the way I feel in some magical mysterious way, or there is just a group of people feeling the same emotions. It’s the way genre’s appeal to different people, magnetizing crowds with the same tastes. I don’t usually feel moved in movies, especially romantic comedies, but Cashback really opened my eyes. It tells of an artists view on life and how we see the beauty in the human form and how we can fall in love with and be so interested in the most peculiar things. Each person has their own flaws, and some people see the beauty in it. A really hideous hag to one may be a princess to another.

I’ve lost my focus, as usual, and definitely wish I had the ability to stop time and think of what I needed to think of to get my ideas out. I feel like I am so profound sometimes but the ability to focus on one profound thought long enough for me to explain it correctly is near impossible.

All artists and creative minds have the same thought process. Almost all things appeal the same way.

I wish I could paint and draw the human figure as beautiful as God made it to be.

Ironic that I talk about focusing and my mind processes the night before my doctor’s appointment to fix it.

I wish life was more laid back and my thoughts could be explained more clear; Philosophy and the Arts were more prominent in today’s world, great artists were recognized more for the incredible work they produce. It’s amazing how much art is made these days, how talented most artists are and how hard they work and still these great artists are struggling for money. Despite the recession we are having and the economic downfall I think that kind of talent is one of a kind and just an incredible thing to own.

Beauty is in love, it just takes a certain mindset to see it.